Today, wow, yes today.
today is my birthday, today will be ending in less than 2 hours and the memory will slowly fade away of the day i turned 20. how do i feel? well honestly. its a mixture of emotions...sometimes happy other times confused...and other other times trying to understand me.
i celebrated my bday hardcore yesterday, at a mexican resto then went on to end the nite with a night of hardpartyin at LCLUB...it was fun..lots of fun..bt there was heartache involved...and no i will not speak of it. for i wish to surpass it, ignore it, defeat it. but i am doubtful...why? because i am sometimes afraid of the unknown and the fact that at this moment i cannot grasp facts nor assurances wht so ever. but oh well, it is my 20th year of existence on this earth. :) and 20 long fruitful, amazing, disappointing, tutoring years have they been...

i still look the same, 2 legs , 2 arms, a neck eyes nose lips...etc..the whole package..nothing has changed...so why am i so fearful wen it comes to growing up..for gods sake i jst turned 20 not 30..but hey its with this fear that a realisation accompanies it , and that realisation being that if u were ok wit being 20 the 30 wil come and too soon, bcs u didnt try to grasp eevrymoment before u grow one year older...

thruout life, u love, dump, befriend, sex up, scorn, snub and lots of other things to others.....
why am i reflecting now? guess cuz it is time for the change of the decade...i want to close the chapter of my year wit a firm resolution that someday i will be better...someday to me i will be muich improved..and someday i wil b able to hold on to wht i most cherish and not let go...

HAPPY BDAY TO ME... :D


Aurore M.